By Lyndsey Seewald for GForce Sports
I was humbled reading a previous post by Michael on his Nazi prison camp experience; it’s interesting how one experience can change a life and its perspective. Unfortunately, sometimes, homosexuals or people that are considered ‘different’ in this world are wearing that pink triangle.
To put a flip to that post, I must say I find myself putting the pink triangle on myself some days. I walk into a restaurant with my girlfriend and right as that first person stares at me, I throw on my pink triangle. As I have stated in previous posts, I am the stereotypical lesbian. Although I have been out for five years now, I still feel that I am being judged in situations when perhaps I am not.
That judgment is never guaranteed when I go somewhere, but I miss the one place that I knew it did not matter how I looked or who I was with: the basketball court.
I miss that feeling of respect regardless of my outside life. I stepped on that court and it was all business: my defense, offense, leadership, and willingness to give every ounce of my mental and physical being to the game of basketball. If I were able to show those things, no one would have anything on me except for, “Well, there is your typical lesbian, good at the game of basketball.”
To which I would respond, “Why, thank you.”
Those days are over now and I must admit the feeling is slowly disappearing as well. For some, it is hard to come out when you are on a team or in athletics, but for others, like me, it was the only place where I did not feel judged.
There is a certain something about playing sports. Even after spending the last year learning about sport and performance psychology, I have yet to discover that ‘something’ about it. Although I may look for it—due to my choice in my masters degree—I hope to never find that ‘something’.
For those homosexuals or people that feel ‘different’ in society—for those of you who feel that the gym floor, the field, the rink, the course—is your place to shine, continue to embrace those free moments. Those moments where no one in the world can touch you with his or her hate, or where those with disagreements on the way you live your life do not matter. Those moments where you feel that your sexuality does NOT play a role because you are good at what you do.
Let the world see that what you have to offer is not your sexuality, but your skills, your abilities, and the knowledge you have for your game. And when you step off the floor, remember that life is not about the pink triangle and who is wearing it, but rather life is about the feeling of being free and escaping the judgment.
Editors note: GForce Sports offers resources for the invisble athlete—those athletes who are struggling with there sexuality or just need some information. Go to this LINK to connect with GForce.